Time is one of the concepts I never truly ever thought about until quarantine gave us a whole bunch of it. I never questioned how I used my time: for who, what, and what it was leading to – until now. I consider myself a chill and laid back type of person. Like the black version of Shaggy from Scooby-Doo. I always believed the God has my back; in whatever I do, just things are going to work out. Some say that’s childish, some say you have to work hard to get anything in life, and a majority says “Life owes us nothing.” I say everyone is right, it all just comes down to how you perceive life and the world around you. I’m not so far gone to say if you do nothing, everything will magically fall in your lap because you are so special. But with faith and work toward that goal or thing, things just align with what you want. I truly believe, “whatever is for you, will be for you, no matter what.” It can take an hour, day, week, month, or even years, but it will come to you. This concept truly ingrained itself into my being over these last few weeks.
It seemed like nothing was going right for me, I couldn’t catch a break to gain my balance in anything I did or wanted to do. If I’m being honest, it left me asking the man above, “Why me? What did I do to not deserve what my heart desires?” It seemed like everyone around was getting blessed left and right, but I was the one left asking where’s my gift? Like the oldest child on Christmas watching the younger ones opening theirs, it felt like I was stuck in a casing of struggle and turmoil, where I couldn’t see the good in the world or the good in my own life. Then someone told me how their life was going, and I completely forgot about what I was going through. I realized some people have it worse off than I do. It’s not to say our problems are irrelevant by no means, but someone else might be going through far worse. I truly felt that was a God given sign right then and there. It made me remember during my own funk that so many people kept saying “stay positive”, “things aren’t forever”, or even “your time is coming, just wait on it.” So I returned the favor and did the same thing for that person in need. I feel like we all should do this in these instances in our lives. Life has enough bad and negativity in it to circle the Earth a million times, so why not drop a little positivity in it when you’re able? I never realized my own problems could be used to help someone else with theirs. It felt like God was telling me, this is your test, and what you’re going through is preparing you for your blessings and to help others. It made me look back onto my life and situations where I thought I couldn’t make it or last, but in the end I did, solely based on God’s glory and grace. In the end, I realized everything comes full circle; me stressing about what I didn’t have or how long it was taking just created a lot of stress and sleepless nights, but in the end with faith and work, things always came through. I always got what I wanted and more. Probably not in my time, but God’s timing – Divine Timing.
All our situations and issues in life that we go through ought to make us value our experiences and treasure the blessings all the more. We probably wouldn’t be able to treasure our blessings as much if we hadn’t gone through Hell and high water to get them. Life’s hardships aren’t meant to break us as individuals, but build us up, make us stronger and equip us for the even harder times. Most of the time the problem isn’t the problem, it’s our heads. So, mind your thoughts during your stand-by period as you wait for what is next for you.
