So this week has been so freaking annoying I can’t even explain it. Literally, damn near everything that I prayed for – the complete opposite happened. When I say that things didn’t go as planned this week – things did not go as planned this week.

Maybe a lot of us can relate right now. I, like a lot of you am a student. It’s time for final exams. We all have enough personal crap we deal with every week, but now to add the cherry on top, we have to take an exam worth 30%-50% of the past 10-12 weeks of our lives. It’s stressful. I’m stressed out, you’re stressed out, and quite honestly, most of the time this week I was mad at God.

That’s right, I said it, mad at God.

To me God is like your favorite parent, where you know they could very well be teaching you some tough love but you still get pissed off at them for executing flawless parenting.

This week, the stress got so bad ya boi had to sit my behind down and just meditate about my life.

I was like:

This student entrepreneur sh*t ain’t it.

Law school ain’t it

The fact that I done fell behind on this class after the midterm ain’t it

This act of reading words off of a paper for hours JUST AIN’T IT

Luckily I got a great study break today and I got to collect content for the next season of The Un-Associated Stories – which is what I love to do. I got away, and I found time to think more clearly.

Let’s face it, bad and hard things come our way. That’s apart of life. And quite honestly, I’m confident in God’s love for me, so I shouldn’t be so quick to doubt His loyalty. In fact, I should know better than to think that my gracious God is making my life hard on purpose for the sin I committed and repented for. Isn’t that funny how we always think that when bad things come, we did something to deserve it?

I now believe that to be a lie. ‘Cause tbh, my God is not petty, He’s gracious. So, what does that mean? It means that He is in control of even my bad days and will carry me through because He doesn’t want me to get caught up in sorrow, he wants me to grow, be built up and for me to sore.

I encourage everyone in this terrible finals season to stay positive and know that God has given you every tool you need to win this season – mentally, physically and spiritually.

-E